Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Sicked....

I'm sicked again???
ish ish..>.<
just few weeks stay outside...
ish...
my body is so weak...haiz....
want to eat more vitamins...
sick sick go away!!!
ish..>.<

New Sem = New Start???

hmmm....
Quite statisfy with my timetable...
no class on monday...so that i can balik kampung during weekends..^.^
class end early... so that i can go happy hour with coursemates...^.^
i hope i don't have to worry about activities...
he can more responsible...
as a head...he not suppose to behave like that...
hmm...quite disappointed with his attitude...but...
as time goes by... i get use to it...
i no longer bother what he said...he want to behave like that is his business...
non-of-my business at all...
i just hope i can focus on my studies...
in order to get what i wished for this year....
a brand new year is coming ahead....
i hope i can live happily...
i hope i can score in my exams...
i hope my mama and brother stay healthy...
i hope there's no 2012 disaster...
i hope all my friends will stay happy forever..
i hope i can get him out of my mind...

this is just my hope...
i hope God will help me in order to reach my target...
i will help myself as well...

at last...
wanna say thank you to those who had help me in the pass..
thanks to my dearest dai lou...
u have helped me alot...
thanks to my kai ko....
and all my beloved friends...
love u all...
Good luck....^.^

Sunday, December 27, 2009

感恩。。。

谢谢你在我需要你的时候陪我。。。
聊天聊了整个晚上。。。
真开心。。。
你放心。。。我会看开的。。。
不会让你失望。。。^.^

Friday, December 11, 2009

左脑右脑八种性格诊断---呜呜女

性格:莽莽撞撞的挑战者
  就女人而言,这是最具冲击性的一种性格类型。因为一切皆依照本能行事,想到什么便勇往直前,没有人能够阻止你。
  由于依直觉行动又保有个人风格,因为引起四周人的兴趣,并经常成为个性独具的万人迷。只不过,因为拥有甚为女人的自觉和矜持,不会初次见面便蓦然露出本性。
   好奇心旺盛,最爱挑战。即使面临突如其来的危险,仍能沉着冷静的应对,以优雅的姿态顺利解决,拥有令人不可思议、对困境掌控自如的能力。虽然会没来由地 怀抱自信,不过一旦遭到强烈的指责,却出乎意料地也有脆弱、敏感的一面。不过在短暂反省之后,大多又会故态复萌,重蹈覆辙。
  在饮酒等聚会上一旦兴致来了,就会强拉对方跟着自己的步调,还会突然指控地大笑、大哭或发怒,毫不顾忌旁人的目光。
   挑选物品时,亦是着重外表更甚于实质内容。例如,明明看不懂英文,却会因色彩或者装帧精美而购买原文书。选购内衣时也是着重设计样式,因此常会买到尺寸 不合的产品。与人谈话时,肢体语言很多,话题也经常跳来跳去。基本上,此类型的人是不听别人说话的。时常不管对方在说什么,只想滔滔不绝地将自己想说的话 一吐而尽。


工作:凭感觉闯江湖的一飞冲天型
  这类人属于喜好分明的自我型。对于凭专业嗅觉渡过难关的工作情有独钟,感觉非常敏锐。一旦灵光乍现,便迸发巨大能量,获得前所未有的成果。遇见能激发自己新潜能的伯乐,便会精确且积极的打成目标。
   另一方面,不喜欢勤恳踏实地下功夫,也讨厌被人编派不合理的工作。只要稍微不感兴趣便意兴阑珊,草率行事。只要唠唠叨叨的冗长会议或是说理似的对话一开 始,便自个儿在脑海中神游。因为容易厌倦,所以难以持续同样的工作,但另一方面,此类型的人,即使工作环境改变,也坚持活出自己,生命力十分强韧。在团队 合作中会显得惴惴不安、缺乏自信,因此比起待在组织里,更适合一个人单打独斗。


金钱:钱财乃身外之物是她的信条
  比起思考要不要花钱,到底想不想要这样的东西,反而是这类人率直且优先考虑的因素。购物时也不会仔细考虑是不是要“奖励自己一下”,而是只要看中意、想要的话,便不顾后果,想尽办法弄到手。
  有钱就花,没钱就不花或是向人借贷,是个“船到桥头自然直”的随遇而安型。与其说她挥霍浪费,不如说是对金钱本身根本不感兴趣,不会受它束缚。
  因此,对于储蓄等也很不在行,账面上虽然有结余,但马马虎虎过得去而已。
  用钱也没有计划,以现金花费,纵使捉襟见肘,也会找晚上的工作来做或是觅得金主,以百折不挠的精神渡过难关。就算自己已经破产,也不会想得太严重,属于不会放在心上的类型。


恋爱:恋爱主义之上的天雷勾动地火型
  “此刻心里是否小鹿乱撞?”此一单纯的心情为[呜呜]女自身唯一的恋爱准则。此类型的人不会谨慎地判断对方的本性,而是凭外表、感觉,或是对方所散发出的气息就一见钟情。
  一旦喜欢上,便不在意自己的情况或是对方的立场,积极投入,爱火愈烧愈旺。借由“凸现自己”、“让对方注意到”、“与其交谈”等,让对方渐渐被自己吸引,几乎所有心仪的对象皆能手到擒来。
  一旦被爱神的箭射中,即使是邂逅当天,也会顺着本意,毫不犹豫地献身。并反倒认为,正因为是“中意”的对象,所以没有必要浪费时间。
  不过,因为重视“心动的感觉”,恋情一旦变得公式化,很快便感到厌倦,并迫不及待渴望新的恋情。
  若是出现新的目标,便会舍弃一切的羁绊,断然投向新人的怀抱,是个对已逝恋情丝毫不留恋的女丈夫。

Thursday, December 10, 2009

给你的话。。。

XX,我很想让你知道我很在意你对我所说的一切,你对我所做的一切。而你却每次都让我伤心,流泪。我很难面对你,如果你有发现的话,我对你再也笑不出。在筹备集训的时候,我们很多时候都意见不合。在集训的时候,你对我的埋怨,多到我自己也数不清。我一个人要顾节目,膳食,交通,场地。我不是万能的,还好翔在我需要人鼓励的时候,让我知道在29号晚上,他们睡觉的时候,他听到荣景和维胜说:“如果没有敏仪,我们很多东西也走不到。” 我听到真的很开心!!!至少有人会感激我说做的一切。然后在集训时,你不但对我不闻不问,反而还堆给我一大堆埋怨,我最在意的就是你和阿Nite一起对我的埋怨,你不但没有站在我这里,反而。。。哎。。。然后,当阿亮来了过后,我到处去帮你们找场地,借广播器,跑上跑下,累了,没有跳舞,想睡觉休息一下,晚上冲凉过后不能睡,又被你说我没有跳舞,在睡觉,所以晚上这样精神,你知道你好像说到我在偷懒。如果你够细心的话,你应该会发现我几乎没有和你们一起用餐,要不就帮你们顾东西,要不就和厨房的阿姨协调。你有关心过我吗?至少荣景还会拿东西去课室给我吃。你呢?累了。。。如果没有荣景他们给我的支持和鼓励,我早就倒了。集训时流了不少泪,也只有翔知道。我很不明白为什么你每次都要向我发脾气。就在那时,子微受伤了,我们大家都知道你那时乱了,然后脾气会很不好,都忍了。当你在埋怨你自己的时候,其实我很想给你鼓励的话。。。可是。。。后来。。。我还是说不出来。

还有一件事,那天你载翔和荣景去买东西的时候,你有打电话给你妈妈,叫你妈妈帮你收拾行李。你知道我们知道过后,是怎样想的吗?我们在想,行李也要妈妈收拾???我想也许你忙吧。。。

XX,我很想告诉你,我很多时候都是很想站在你那里,支持你,可是,往往就是被你对我的态度而改变了我的想法。是你变了???还是我看清楚你的为人???我很想我们还是以前那样。。。我,你,翔都是好朋友~~~

我写这东西不是想要让你知道我有多伟大,我付出多少。。。我只想让你知道,有时看东西不能只看表面,还有,无论如何,我还是会站在你那里支持你的。。。

Sunday, November 22, 2009

22th Nov 2009...

Today went to the Penang Bridge Marathon...















i just can't imagine i can finish up 10km in just 1hour30mins...
is it long or short?? im wonder...
just feel my leg extremely tired...
but after rest for a while...nothing...
yet i discover one thing...
i sprained my right leg...
my toe...very pain..ARGH!!!!
can't even walk...
Sigh~~~

After few days...i'm going bek UKM again...
for the sake of RESPONSIBLE...
so i have to go back...
thought everyone can be on time...
yet received an sms today saying that one can't manage to back on time...
Sigh~~~
Back there staying at his house...
is not what i wished to happen...
Sigh~~~
don't really know what should do...
really not feel like going back...

i hope i can find a part time job here...
as i want some extra money...$.$
LOL...
anyway...hope everything going my way...
GOOD LUCK to ME..^.^

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Childish??

erm...this year..im 21 years old...
last few days went Midvalley...
there have a carnival there...
my family and i go there have a walk...
after that suddenly got 1 Singh jump out and ask me...
" Hey, do you wanna learn English?"
Sigh~~~
then i said..No thanks...
after that i look at the advertisement...
for Kids only..OMG!!!
haiz...
am i really that childish look???
haiz...
is it a good thing or a bad thing???
Sigh~~

Friday, November 13, 2009

"显"

为什么???
到底是我不了解你还是你不了解我???
你昨晚说了这么多的废话...
说什么不要我伤心,关心我才帮我...
呸!!!
我不需要你假惺惺!!!
你说你 spoonfeed 我???
为什么我感觉不到???
很讨厌你!!!
讨厌!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Love || Hurt??

I love you
But I hate you at the same time
Hate you fo how much I yearn for you
For how you did not even notice.

I love you,
But I hate the way you treat me.
All I want is a smile,
And thats all you ever gave.
I want more,
But you reply me no more

I love you,
But you could never be mine,
For I can't love you
As the time is not right,
Cos' I'm afraid
So afraid that I'll be hurt again.

And most of all,
I'm afraid that i might hurt, for loving you,
I felt like crying, but the tears won't drop,
My chest hurts like its gonna collapse, PLEASE STOP!
I don't want it anymore.
For how much I love you, it hurts me more.


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Stress...=(

Stress..argh!!!!
Exam exam exam...when only i can get this out of my mind???
Haiz....
Hope all those stupid exam faster end~~~

Saturday, October 17, 2009

结束了...

好久没有来这里了...
不想写因为不想伤心...
这次...是我的决定...

结束了...

终于结束了...
经过那个晚上...
你对我说做的一切...
我被一个我最要好的朋友骂醒了...
以后我跟你, 除了公事再也不想有别的事了...
我真的累了...
很辛苦...不想再这样下去所以结束一切...
我知道我会不开心...可是一时的不开心好过每次都不开心...

你过你的生活...我过我的生活..
希望你不会再来烦我...

Monday, September 21, 2009

Things i plan to do....

this holiday....
me and my coursemate plan do projects...
yet no people asking when we free....=.=
next i plan to do my hair....
hehe...
then i plan to become more lady like..^^
erm...
another thing is i plan to study...
all this just a plan..hope i can do what i planned...

happy holidays!!!!

When travel back hometown...

Holiday starts....
i still remember on friday...
at first one of my senior said wanna fetch me home...
caused that day he promise ald..he said will fetch me back at 4pm
end up......9pm only start our journey..=.=
this is because got one couple super senior said that they cant make it...
damn shit..i hate so late only start journey...
after that...during our journey...
i feel very tired...sleepy...
the damn shit female super senior non-stop talking all those MPP history..
making all those stupid noise...shit...still asking me for my opinion...
SWT!!!
mood already no good...yet...stupid idiot policemen...don't know do what road blocking...
make all traffic jam like hell....shit shit shit


making all those traffic like hell...
damn shit malay...stop their car in the entrance of the rest house...
shit them...ish..>.<

finally..around 5am reach BW....
While waiting for alvin....
we had our breakfast there....
around 6am++ they reach already...
then me and boo yang sit ferry to Penang...
i called my brother to fetch me...lolx
so good my brother..^^
after that...reach home..bath then go for dim sum...
wuhu...^^
damn sleepy that time...
yet i stil manage to shop for whole day....
Sunway Carnival Mall, Carrefour, Jusco....etc...
go back home already like ghost....
big panda eyes....
yet..i do enjoy my holiday....hehe

Saturday, September 12, 2009

放了。逃避

我不知道我是完完全全放开了....
还是在逃避....
我很不想跟他说话...
可是昨天跳完舞过后...
不知道他是特地的于别的女生说话....
还是看到我与其他男生谈话....
所以才气我...
可是我总感觉到他在气我...
哎....无言.....
过后他载我回宿舍...
我完完全全的不想跟他说再见!!!!
连看也不想看他一眼!!!!
过后就走掉了....
我想了很久....
我觉得我有必要要解决着件事....
SMS 给他....
永远没有回复...算了...等他表演完今天的再说吧!!!!
对他...真的无言~~~

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

<<记得要忘记>>

突然想到一首歌...
还蛮适合我...

在就要转身前忽然又想起你
相遇的那一天漾着微笑的你
那个微笑
还是很美丽
可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣
太耀眼的城市不适合看星星
就如同你的心不适合谈安定
谢谢你让我伤过心
学会爱情并非执迷
人改变不了改变不了的事情
记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
你已经是
人海中的一个背影
长长时光
我应该要有新的回忆
人无法决定会为谁动心
但至少可以决定放不放弃
我承认我
还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆
记得要忘记忘记
经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶然的那种相遇
不会不容易
我有一辈子
足够用来忘记
我还有一辈子
可以用来努力
我一定会忘记你


p/s:时时刻刻提醒自己要忘记...

Sunday, September 06, 2009

emotions...

just now went dinner with raymond n yx...
at first still ok...still very happy...
go enjoy corns in cup at metro kajang...
go walk walk with him there....
when reached 99...
after order food...
suddenly 1 song appear....
Lee Hom <<心跳>>
then don't know why...
my mood changed...
yx ask me....how's your mood now??
then i said no good....
this song remain me of him....
angry and sad....
when only i can totally get him out of my mind????
i want asap!!!!
i can't take it anymore!!!
Please help me~~~ ='(

Saturday, September 05, 2009

For You...

I know maybe i'm not the girl that u want...
but maybe your action really make me blur...
i don't know what you think....
thousands of times i been crying because of you...
whenever i wanted to forget everything...
you will give me hope again...
yet in the end...
what did i get???
i cried...u say me childishh don't know how to think....
shouted at me....
who do you think you are??
should you shout at me???
do you know how to respect people??
whenever i comment about you...
you sure got lots of reasons saying that you correct...
i speechless...
people say that i should'nt waste time on you..
this correct...
i should start from now...
i don't want to waste so much time so much tears on you...
as you said..not worth..really not worth...

i really sensitive towards what you said...
i will think more on the negative side...
thats y....

haiz...i already got one answer...
wish you good luck in exams..^^
i know u have no time to study this time...
all the best...
you can de...

Everything Settled.....

erm....ended mid sem...
really feel relief~~~
feels like wanna go holiday...
do what i want....
its quite a long time didn't blogging....
i'm sorry my dear blog~~~
this few days really busy with lots of activities...
Creative Lane...KTH....

erm...

i just got some feeling towards CL....
feeling wanna let go....
i wanted to see how he will handle everything after i let it go...
but i just cant do it...=.=
haiz....maybe i really soft hearted...

about KTH...
i do really don't like...
not i don't got heart..
is the people inside there don't know how to lead us....
i just sharing what i feel...
maybe they also know the problem and maybe they trying to fix it....
i really thinking of resigning from KTH....
from now and then...
yet...i didn't do it..=.=

regarding him~~~
i know my feeling to him really strong...
i just don't know what about him....
yesterday..again..his temper..haiz
shouted at me again...
i really hate him....
don't know how to respect people...
i told him i'm the person that quite negative in thinking...
he just knew it yesterday...
then he wanted me to change so fast...
its impossible...
i really feeling like wanna forget about him...
again...soft hearted makes me failed in this mission...
i just hope he can know how to think...
yet he say me childish...
always know how to fulfill people's needs
did't consider first...
yet i told hiim the reason..
he like not accept =.=
don't know what i should do next...
i find no way out...T.T
haiz...
hope can settle this problem ASAP...

hope after Raya holiday everything will be ok soon~~~
thanks to all my friends that worry about me before...
thanks to those who accompany me when i sad...
really touch with what you all have done...
THANK YOU.....

Love u all~~~

Sunday, August 23, 2009

矛盾...

明明已经做了决定...
但是...为什么心还这样软...

我恨我自己....
为什么老是放不开....

神啊~~~求您救救我吧!!!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

决定.....

经过昨晚....
我已经做了个决定....
那就是放弃....
我觉得他不值得我对他这样好....

哭了整晚...
好朋友也骂了我整晚....
我明白了....
谢谢你...

我现在需要的是时间...
我不会让好朋友们失望...
谢谢你们的关心...

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Oldies =)

歌手:michael learns to rock 专辑:blue night

歌词:歌曲:Paint My Love
歌手:Michael Learns To Rock
Paint My Love
Compose / Lyrics / Vocal / Jascha Richter.

From my youngest years
till this moment here
I've never seen
such a lovely queen
From the skies above
to the deepest love
I've never felt
crazy like this before
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Been around the world
then I met you girl
It's like comming home
to a place I've known
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Since you came into my life
the days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Confusing.....

I very confuse to our friendship right now....
I don't know who should I trust.....

Special for u....
I don't know whether i changed or not....
just be myself....
evertime i enter your room....
I talked to you...
you didn't bother bout me....
i feel myself not belong to you guys...
say already six of us don't have secret...
end up???
i don't know...
i really confuse....
u can talk A with someone...
then talk B with another one....
is u change or me???
i don't know....
i can't see myself.....
i admit i not longer that blur....
but...just don't treat me as a fool....
i got feeling....
i add up add up all those feelings....
end up....become like this....
i don't know whether is i think too much or what...
i just treat you da way u treat me.....
it's a manner....
if people talk to you..no matter how busy you are...
you should answer that people...
this so simple why you can't make it???
maybe it's my problem....

i really confuse....

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Finished.....

Finally Malam Suai Kenal finish.....
yesterday before the event....i went to Kajang Hospital to see Doctor....
We waited for 4hours there....
I choose to go yesterday...because i really scare i'm having H1N1....
I don't want to spread those virus to others.....
but i don't know it takes so long time to wait for my turn.....
I left my partner alone at the college...
I asked my friend to fetch me back...and i said i don't want to see the doctor ald....
but...my friend didn't say anything...just sit there....
When i'm back....
I try to complete my work....
but when i saw him....i just wanted to give them support....
caused they going to perform on the stage....
so i spend time with them....
and I admit....I really worry about them...

wanted to say sorry to my partner....
but I know no matter how many sorry i say.....
can't make up the hurt that she experienced...
just wanted to say sorry~~~
I choose to left u alone....because i know KTH got alot of member that can help you.....
but there????
sorry again....

now..everything finshed....
really finished...
all become past tense....
and i found out that our friendship become so unstable....
I don't know is my problem or...........
just let it be natural....
maybe as time goes by.....
i've found out something....I've grown up.....
Can think further...
not like last time....

Now everything is gone....our friendship????
I don't know.....
just be myself....

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Sick....T_T

Sick all the times......
on and off....
now having cough....
once i lay down on bed...cough non-stop!!!!
try to sleep very hard....but............
end up da next day.....HEADACHE!!!!!
don't dare go PK.....
scare there got H1N1 case....
so i just consume whatever medicine i have.....
really torture....
i HATE cough!!!
yesterday during the event...i cough till non-stop....=.=|||
cough til my lung out!!
first time cough till like that.....
people asking...why you always sick????
haiz....i also don't know....
haiz....
hope can recover ASAP....
then only i can enjoy those spicy and icy food...^^

p/s: sorry if make u worry~~~

Monday, August 03, 2009

扯玲 ^^

昨天去买了扯玲...
晚上就去了 Pusanika 等 Darren 来教....
过后就去上课了....
上完课后回去那里...
陪他们玩...
还真的很好玩... ^^
我会扯玲了咯!!!!
真的很开心....
过后他因贪玩...用了Amin 后面的路送我回 KKM...
怎知.....我们迷路了...我很怕~~~
过后还是下来了...
那时..那里还真的很暗.....
怕到~~~
过后我吵饿....
他就载我还有我的 direct 去了 Fasa3 吃....

真开心....~~~

Tired day...

Erm....yesterday was a busy day....
At first planned wake up early...
end up...LATE!!!!
Felo run away already....
haiz..cannot make phone call in room!!!!
can't even sms....SHIT!!!
then i use my roommate phone to call felo....
tell him i will go FST find him....
After that i go met bear to get his signature..then i when on Zone3 bus.
when i reach FST...
i totally duno where i am....I'm LOST!!SHIT!!!
then i called felo help..he direct me to Bangunan Kimia...so good..=)
after get his signature...i went pusanika order food....
then went back college submit letter to pengurus, pengetua and another felo....
after that i went to midvalley to take da diabolo.....
first time go midvalley...scare....
lucikly i saw chai wei..^^
we went together....we ate korean food....
so nice....you know what?? The boss very very pretty...^^
then go jusco shopping....brought egg etc....
then only met up the diabolo seller...
after that buy present for my dear dai lou...=)
then come back lo...extremely tired...
next week going midvalley take diabolo again....
money flies~~~

so happy yesterday.... =)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

.......

我觉得我对我的朋友很不公平...
看到他这样...我很心酸...

可是...

我真的不想这样....
我很内疚....
刚才她说:" 他也只有一双手....你要他怎样哦"
我想了很久....我真的很不服责任....

都是我不好...
都是我的错....

我想了很久....
我觉得我不可以空拿那个职位...
拿了好像没有贡献....
对其他人很不公平.....

有谁可以教我该怎么办吗??????

Sunday, July 26, 2009

My Feelings towards CL...

erm.....yesterday talking to you by phone til 4am....
we discussing our activities....yet i still have bundle of assignments....
you...you've joined PAP, PT drama, PA, CL....
can you handle so much my dear friend???
i really worry about you....
we need you....
don't let yourself fall....
you too 冲动...
no matter in what situation...
you do things won't think for the 后果....
just like yesterday...i really angry you wearing anoter society t-shirt!!!
i know you sense it....(cause i didn't talk to you)
and then u try to korek my mouth ask me talk....
do such funny funny things..lolx
erm....
i do enjoy the time when together with CL guys....
you all really nice....^^
oh ya....WS n GS don't always call me ah so ler....
called like i'm samseng nia....=(
through this society..
i've learn to be brave....
learn to face alot of people....
just like yesterday....
i can talk infront over 150 people....
really can't imagine....lolx
through this society also....
i can get closer to yx....
he very quiet and scare girl last time....(this what he told me)
now???i cant feel he scare me....(or he treat me as guy????)
anyway..really happy get to know you guys....
friendship forever..=)

Finally....

Finally its over....
finish one day camp...finish 委员大会...
im free finally....just need to focus on Tiong Hwa and Creative Lane...
really feel sorry to my dearest friend...
cause i didn't put effort in KTH.....

but...

i will put more effort from now....
since i have rejected him...
i don't want get involved in that society anymore.....
i mean i don't want climb so high..
later fall down i will very pain....
its over now....
all over...
its time for me for my studies, KTH n CL....

lastly....
wanna say sorry to my dearest friend......=)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

我的答案....

今天他又与我在msn 聊天...
每次聊天的话题肯定少不了mpp的话题....
每次都问我要不要参加....
今天已经是的第四次....
我仍然拒绝了...
原因很简单...
因为我不要自己太忙...
不要背着这样重大的责任....
我来大学的目的很简单..
那就是读书...
所以.....
我真的不想再参加了....
我真的累了.....
让我好好的休息吧....

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

招募的过程....

招募....首先是在 Pusanika 招募...
我的第一次...
第一次厚着脸皮...去招新生进入国大华裔学生理事会....
第一次这样大胆于一个我不认识的人讲话....
第一次做主讲人.....
真的有很多第一次....
在这短短的招募里...创意坊也发生了不少事....
说什么辞职....
坊长辞职??秘书辞职??股长也辞职??
你要我怎样??
真的要我死了你们才甘愿吗??
我那时听了你们要辞职的消息
我真的不知到我该怎么办....
伤心...流泪.....
你们后来说是跟我开玩笑...
很好笑吗??
算了....后来你又一副要管又不要管....
我到底该怎样做你们才甘愿??
你昨天说: " 你需要我吗?不需要的话我去当佛学的交通"
我那时听了真的很难过....无奈....
我真的越来越不了解你了....
我不知道你的心到底是想什么....
你的心还在创意坊吗??我不知道....
我知道你爱玩...爱跳舞...不爱政治的东西...不喜欢交流,不喜欢喝茶.....
我可以替你去....但我不希望你离创意坊而去...
我不想~~~很伤心.....我快崩溃了.....
我不知道怎样告诉你....
哎~~~
接下来我们还有另一个招募....
正式招募...在 Pusanika, D-restaurant 前...
真的希望没有事情发生.....
我很怕.... 怕你会离开我们.....
可以不要离开我们吗???='(
我们还有一些常年活动....
一起搞好他好吗???
不要因为创之夜而失望.....
我们还可以的!!!! =)

无题....

对不起....冷落你这么久....
最近有一点忙...忙招募....筹备一日营...迎新会...等等....
很累.....很想休息了!!!
招募已经接近尾声了...很开心....
因为我认识了一些新朋友..=)
也有一点不开心....
我发现我有一点不大关心我的朋友...
我那五个好朋友...最近好像有一点不开心...
我竟然会不知道....我真的没有去关心他们...
都是我不好..哎~~~
发生了这么多事....
真的很烦...真的希望一切能像以前....
虽然我不知道发生什么事....但愿我们的友谊能像以往那样....
不要为了一点小事而闹不合...
我本身认为...要互相忍让这样才可以让大家有机会好好相处....
要找一个朋友不容易....但要找一个了解你的更难...
如果你找到了, 就要好好的珍惜对方...
也许人是需要经过一些考验才会成长....
希望一切能像以前....大家快快乐乐的相处在一起...
没有烦恼....那该多好~~~~

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

想要分享一首歌....

<<我沒有錯>>

作詞:蕭閎仁、小翼(WOW)
作曲:呂至傑
編曲:Terence Teo

我坐在咖啡店 落地窗的前面
雨水灑滿整條街 和人們的臉
鋼琴的黑白鍵 搭配過的和絃
我們的愛情 什麼和絃

是我太傷悲還是城市太灰
這樣的台北還有什麼好留戀

沒有錯是我自私的舉動
給我藉口 讓我這次能夠徹底放手
讓我走 別讓我 更痛苦的過
不讓你傷的更重
I’ll always always love you so

你表情好憔悴 強顏歡笑的臉
你那哭紅的雙眼 讓我好心碎
我願意 讓你飛 不再對你留戀
別讓我成為 你的側臉

是我太傷悲還是城市太灰
這樣的台北還有什麼好留戀

沒有錯是我自私的舉動
給我藉口 讓我這次能夠徹底放手
讓我走 別讓我 更痛苦的過
不讓你傷更重
I’ll always always love you so

傷的更重 傷的更重

也許我沒有離開的理由(我沒有錯)
是我沒用
無法守護著你一直到最後
別回頭 答應我 你會好好過
讓我默念一萬遍
I’ll always always love you
love you so

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

松了一口气...

今天去了医院检查.....
是我的阿姨载我去的....
到了医院, 拿了号码...
坐着等........
不久就到我了...
进去不久医生就叫我去验血....
进去里面...见到一件很好笑的事情!!!!!
有一位男生...他竟然怕验血!!!
那些护士竟然还说: “You see this small girl...she so brave!!!!”
瓦老!!!! 竟然叫我 SMALL GIRL???? =.=''
过后不久我就出来了...那位男生还在里面!!!! =.=''
验了血那了报告就去找回那位医生....
医生说: " You sihat saja...tak ada dengue tak ada apa apa pun...cuma perlu rest cukup cukup."
他还说: " Ingat makan banyak banyak vitamin dan minum air banyak banyak...."
听了这个好消息开心到我~~~
哈哈...
总之要谢谢我的阿姨啦...带我去看医生...
还有要谢谢关心我的人啦....
哈哈!!!!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

假期生活....

不知不觉假期已到了尾声....
在这假期里我还算过的充实....
去了3个地方...
首先是跟家人去了马六甲及金马仑...
过后是于朋友到了金宝...
两种感觉都不一样....
还记得去金马仑的时候...
不管是上去还是下来...
我都呕 =(

哎..真没用!!!!

过后就去了金宝....
真的很快乐...能于旧朋友相见...=)
也有不快乐的时候....
但都是过去了...不想再提...

从金宝回来不久...
我就大病一场!!!!
到现在都还没有康复...=(
第一次这样不舒服....
很怕是H1N1....
昨天去了clinic....
医生说不是....
但是刚刚felo叫我去医院检查....
哎....很怕....
很希望我快点好起来....
这样我就可以出去了....
他叫我好好照顾身体....
他回来会叫我出去..=)

想着想着....我还剩下一个星期的假期....
(我还没有弄头发叻!!!!)
我就要回去集训了....
有一点不想回去的感觉....
我知道我有个Form6 的 junior 来 UKM
还蛮开心叻!!!
这个学期开始我就是别人的senior了....
难以想象....
好啦不写了....要享受假期去了!!!!!!

Friday, June 19, 2009

人。嬗变

为什么你说变就变!!!!
完完全全变成另一个人....
以前的你去了那里???
我不知道我是不是管得太多...
可是...你是我最信任的人....
我真的不想你因为她而变....
她不是你相像的单纯....
你说分手就分手....
这我不管了....

但....

如果你将我告诉你的都告诉她...
明明是她不对...
她反而骂我!!!
WT*
你以为我好欺负吗???

以前的你不是这样的...
难道你变了???
还是以前你已经是这样了???
我很矛盾....
我很希望我们能像以前那样....
可是....经过了这么多风风雨雨....
我觉得不可能了....
刚刚发了个简讯给你....
骂了你几句....
希望你能醒过来...

你的好朋友都叫你的前任女友不要这样傻
因为不值得.....
可是我们就是不甘心!!!!
真的希望一切像以前那样....
那该多好....

可是....已经不可能了~~~~

Thursday, June 18, 2009

失望....

这次...我回金宝...其中一个目的是为了你....
我知道你周围的朋友都不喜欢你...
我很想帮你...可是....你却嫌我烦....
我不知道为什么我很关心你....
每次看到你msn的message...
都很担心你....而你都会一一告诉我你发生什么事.
可是....万万没有想到你会blocked 我的msn!!!
起初我还不确定你是不是blocked 我...
但只从我去了金宝....我的ex-coursemate也就是你的housemate...
他告诉我....你问起我...过后你还告诉我的朋友你blocked了我....
你还嫌我烦....我那时听了真的很生气!!!!!
我很后悔为什么我还这样关心你!!!
关心你是不是发生什么事....
哎....
过后我的朋友告诉我....
以后不用再这样关心你!!!!他们还叫我回到槟城立刻把你的msn delete 掉!!!!
我真的很伤心....很失望....
但....我告诉我自己...
我不会再这样对你了!!!
你的事于我无关!!!!!

Monday, June 08, 2009

Feelings....

Result coming out soon....
My heart feels terrible...
How's my result going to be???
I'm wondering....
My friends said I always busy with activities....
but....I do have time to do revision....
I just don't understand how come everytime when I do the exam paper...
I feel lost!!!
I'm so nervous....
I'm so useless!!!!!
Am i taking the correct road???
I know there's no turning back....
But when I thinking my " Latihan Industri"....
I feel lost again....
What job should i do???
Do I happy with what I do????
Is this what I want????
I don't know!!!!
Haiz....LOST!!!!
Result out on 11th June....
Today is 9th June....2 more days to go.....
God Bless Me.....

Monday, May 25, 2009

What Makes A Friend?

A friend is someone who is always there,
Someone with whom your day you share.

A friend is there to lend a hand,
In times of need they understand.

A friend is there to lift your spirit,
When your in doubt and can not bear it.

They have a way to make you smile,
And always go that extra mile.

All this I have found in YOU,
No longer am I feeling blue.

I am glad that you're my friend,
And that on you I can depend!

Thank-You.
For always being there for me!!!

Thanks my bud...

Though we seldom meet,

BUT

Our friendship stil strong!!

What Is Friendship?


Perhaps the one relation that has survived the trials and tribulations of time and has still remained unconditional is friendship. A unique blend of affection, loyalty, love, respect, trust and loads of fun is perhaps what describes the true meaning of friendship between two individuals. Similar interests, mutual respect and strong attachment with each other are what friends share between each other. These are just the general traits of a friendship. To experience what is friendship, one must have true friends, who are indeed rare treasure.

Different people have different definitions of friendship. For some, it is the trust in an individual that he / she won't hurt you. For others, it is unconditional love. There are some who feel that friendship is companionship. People form definitions based on the kind of experiences they have had. This is one relation that has been nurtured since times immemorial. There are famous stories about friends in mythologies of different religions all over the world. They say a person who has found a faithful friend has found a priceless treasure.

Psychologically speaking, friendship may be defined as "a dynamic, mutual relationship between two individuals. As children become friends, they negotiate boundaries within which both partners function". This helps them to function like healthy individuals in life as they learn to draw a line as and when needed in a relation. This greatly helps in the emotional development of an individual. However, any relation needs constant nurturing and development from all the people that are involved in one. Friendship cannot survive if one person makes all the effort to sustain it without any mutual recognition from others.

Since friendship starts the moment a child starts socializing, the kind of friends that the child chooses should be taken care of till the time he / she learns to differentiate between right and wrong. Wrong peers or lack of socializing can lead to severe psychological traumas and disorders, finally leading to social maladjustment. The correct peer group is essential for the development of the personality of a child. Both positive and negative experiences refine the personality of the individual. Thus it is essential that you find friends who are compatible with you on an emotional and psychological basis.


職業性格



主人型


外向型:
100.0%
感覺型:57.14%
直覺型:42.85%
思考型:42.85%
情感型:57.14%
判斷型:71.43%
理解型:28.57%

職業性格:主人型
詳細分析: 您的性格類型是「ESFJ」( 主人型 )

有 愛心、有責任心、合作。希望周邊的環境溫馨而和諧,並為此果斷地營造這樣的環境。喜歡和他人一起精確並及時地完成任務。忠誠,即使在細微地事情上也如此。 能體察到他人在日常生活中的所需並竭盡全力幫助。希望自己和自己的所為能受到他人的認可和賞識。ESFJ型的人通過直接的行動和合作積極地以真實、實際的 方法幫助別人。他們友好、富有同情心和責任感。ESFJ型的人把他們同別人的關係放在十分重要的位置,所以他們往往具有和睦的人際關係,並且通過很大的努 力以獲得和維持這種關係。事實上,他們常常理想化自己欣賞的人或物。ESFJ型的人往往對自己以及自己的成績十分欣賞,因而他們對於批評或者別人的漠視很 敏感。通常他們很果斷,表達自己的堅定的主張,樂於事情能很快 得到解決。ESFJ型的人很現實,他們講求實際、實事求是和安排有序。他們參與並能記住重要的事情和細節,樂於別人也能對自己的事情很確信。他們在自己的 個人經歷或 在他們所信賴之人的經驗之上制定計劃或得出見解。他們知道並參與周圍的物質世界,並喜歡具有主動性和創造性。ESFJ型的人十分小心謹慎,也非常傳統化, 因而他們能恪守自己的責任與承諾。他們支持現存制度,往往是委員會或組織機構中積極主動和樂於合作的成員,他們重視並能保持很好的社交關係。他們不辭勞苦 地幫助他人,尤其在遇到困難或取得成功時,他們都很積極活躍。

您適合的領域有:領域特徵不明顯

您 適合的職業有:公關客戶經理,個人銀行業務員,銷售代表,人力資源顧問,零售商,餐飲業主,房地產經紀人,營銷經理,電話營銷員,辦公室經理,接待員,信 貸顧問,簿記員,口筆譯人員,房地產經紀人,護士,按摩師,運動教練,飲食業管理,旅遊管理,辦公室行政或管理人員,秘書,總經理助理,項目經理,客戶服 務部人員,理貨員/採購,採購和物流管理人員,內科醫生,牙科醫生,健康護理指導師,飲食學、營養學專家,小學教師(班主任),學校管理者等銀行,酒店、 大型企業客戶服務代表,公共關係部主任,商場經理

Friday, May 22, 2009

Unsent Message....

hate this..how come what i do he also want to control!!!!
i'm big enough....
i don't like being control by him!!!!!mind your own business!!! !@#$%^&*
i feel you very busy body!!! don't disturb my life can??
sometime i feel i happier if holiday i didn't come back !!!
after i back here.. do what go where... all also under your control!!!!
can you please don't control so much??
you want freedom...i want also...
you don't like i ask about your things....
you please don't do what you don't like to others!!!!
its over!!!!!
if you want to control also got its limit!!!
please behave yourself!!!
or else...next time i won't back here so early!!!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

short story...

last few days..if not mistaken is tuesday.... i go Parkson find my "daddy"...
haha..he is the Parkson Manager...fuyoh...respect him...
hehe...
so happy can see him...
its been a long time i didn't meet him up....
so miss him...lolx...
that day i go with lynn (my best bud)
we go by bus... then reach there...walked whole Prangin Mall...
walked Pacific....he stil busy...
finally he free...
he sms me said " i was out just now"
then i replied... "Parkson so hot!!! no air cond...."
after few seconds..he call me...
but i didn't notice...
cause i was chatting with my ex-colleagues...
when i notice...he hang up already..==
then i sms him"??"
haha..hope he'll call me back...(save money)...
he do call me...lolx...scolded me..didn't answer his call....haha...
after awhile...i saw him...with one of the executive...
don't know why..i'm feeling uncomfortable...
cause i think " what will people think when they know the Manager calling the ex-worker..."
don't know...
haha...
but that day i reli happy...cause can meet him up...
nobody will understand how happy i am that day....^^,