为什么???

为什么??心中有很多问题...有很多东西不清楚...很想问清楚....但...
试想想..问了有什么结果??不开心??那倒不如不要问...
有时候人类真的很矛盾...明明是这样..但又要按着良心说另一样...
为何???
我们要为了自己而活...不要为了别人的一举一动...别人对你的看法看得太重..
这样会让自己活得不开心...
真的不能明白为什么他要这样做...他又想过他人的感受吗??还是他人有某些地方使他不满意???
哎....
人啊!!!
是人类太复杂了吗??还是人类想太多了??很乱....人活得简单一点可以吗???
这样问题就少很多...也会比较开心...不要谁不爽谁...谁不理谁的...听了都很烦...
还小吗??
哎...
问题真的很多...发生了很多事...从好的变不好的，从不好的变好的都有...
这里的生活真的不一样...来了这里才真真的体会到人有很多面...而我...
认识我的人都懂我只有那么的一面...
但他们说看到的都不是真真的我...
我是很悲观的人...永远只会想坏的...不会先往好的方面想...也许是以前的影响吧...
导致现在的我...哈哈...
也许我不想让别人担心...也许这是我保护自己的方法吧!!!
不要背被人欺负...这就是我!!!
永远保持开心...大家看了都开心..活得更精彩!!!
为了你自己而活把!!!!

such a memorable day...

hehe..2day loong bek UKm ^^...so happy...
after my exam i recif min2 call asking go out 4 dinner at KB...
den min khin fetch me there..mana tau all kedai sudah tutup dat time..
sienzzz....den v go bus stop there..do alot of fnny things...den go wisma unikeb...
cz min heard there food nice nice ler..
mana tau when reach there..tutup oso..haiz...den look around...ok finish "visiting" wisma unikeb..
haha =)
den v saw 1 bus...tot is 6K..very happy..cz tot can go big tree bottom..mana tau dat 1 is U..
super duper swt 2day...
den v go kajai 4 dinner...raining...
me order 1 pattaya..same wif loong..min order n.goreng Thai...
oOOoo...food come..hungry hungry..
den very fast i finish my food..keke..
me n min min chat bout lots of tings...happy happy..
den v wait 4 loong 2 finish up..
v talking about tiong hwa agian...discuzing bout cniors att...
erm...so confusing...
when v go bek..min2 complaining her leg pain if wear her shoes...den loong very gentleman oo
he take off his shoe n let min min where oo..(he bcm kaki ayam)
he lidat wallk til da junction of kkm..so touchy...^^,
kekez...den ...end of story la..haha..
nitez..time 2 bed..=P
ZZZzzzz

happy day^^

2day dunno y very happy...mayb bcz of him??
hehe..i dunno..cz me n him fren bek...
v argue laz year..
din talk 2 each other since laz year...
but 2day..v can sit there...chatting happily..
u stil like laz time..sit there acc me do revision..teach me..
kekez..reli happy..hope dis day can laz forever..^^,
frenz 4ever...hehe =)

izit him??

i dunno who i like...him or another 1...i use 2 b "ai mei" wif B..
but when i saw A wif another gal or care bout another gal...
i dunno y im feeling not good...
but if 1 day i din sms B...i oso feeling like npt use 2 it...
how??who can explain 2 me??
or all dis is juz my imaginary??
reli dun1 get involve in dis thing..scare later kena hurt...
no confident...how??????=(

wat u thinking??

i wondering..wat u thinking...etime i c u like no mood...sit there..
i 1 2 help u..but i noe..u wont told me..dis i oso duno y...
i reli worry bout u..do u noe it??
i 心痛do u notice??
i dun und y u dun1 talk ur things wif me...
am i too blurr??or u dun treat me as ur fren??
i dunno....but 1 thing i noe is..i reli care bout u...hope u can und...

hate dis!!!

y??y etime lidis??said meeting at 10pm..den who who who come bek..1 msg u 1na ask me come out meeting pulak??F**K u!!
u tot i very free izit??etime st there wait 4 ur msg n ask me come out meeting??u tot i got nothing 2 do??reli hate dis kind of ppl!!!can v do as wat v promise??
reli TL!!!
so irresponsible..dats y i hate dis activity!!dats y i dun1 2 put more effort in it!!!bcz of dis kind of ppl!!!
reli hate them!!!cant do wat as promise!!@#*#
like dat de meeting...change suddely de..i 4ever wont attend..though am in my room!!!!

who am i??

who am i??i dun even noe myself??
quite sad...i dun und myself...
my frens oso...act..u guys c me smiling at u...like no worries..
act..im not!!i juz pretend ntg...
dis happen when i was in form2...my father ran away..left me,my mom n my bro...
u noe dat time...v no place 2 stay..so v temporally stay at my grandma's hse.
dat time...reli very difficult..
cz dat not our own hse...is my 2 aunties place..thay use 2 stay at dat hse since my grandma was pass awy..
there got 3 cars...but oly 1 cover parking lot.dat time...my aunties oways rebut dat parking lot wif us..
nvm...v give them...
den they keep find something n argue wif us...
they treat us so so so unkind..very sad...dis all my father's fault!!!
and when v buy our own hse..n when v moved..oly they started 2 treat us nice abit..y??may i noe??
my father oways gv me hope...den??all wat he gv...sure got some rules n regulations v nid 2 fulfill..
wat 4??
all goods go 2 him bad 2 us??wat 4 giving me hope??den pour me cold water??
i hate dis...n now i cant trust ppl easily...n i cant even trust men...i dunno wat they think..
sometime i feel im lonely... i scare i been cheat by my frens...i dunno wat they think...
i scare i use my heart 2 fren wif them but they didn't..how??
im lost!!!

valentine's day

hi there...tell u all 1 thing...though im single..but i reli hv an meaningful valentines day..
i celeb dis day wif my fren...at st...after mv...v planning go out...but hv 2 ait 4 ed..so plan later..
when ed is bek..den sh suggested v go PD...
ermmm..wat a good idea..efficiently...v go n borrow bikes from cnior...junior...
hopefully ething going well...den but..go PD hv been canceled by me..its too dangerous..so v plan go mcd after dat...
mana tau...when v reach da traffic light..suddenly change idea 2 balakong...walao...
da road no ppl de..den v miss 1 junction..v walk against da road...st time...reli geng..
u all noe wat??v meet 1 couple there..once they c us..they straight bla...^^
plan 4 movie,when reach tgv,,tutup kedai pulak..swt ==
den change plan 2 putrajaya...
v jz 4lo da signboard...to putrajaya...mana tau..finally v reach there...reli unbelieveable..wakaka..
v go round there...take 4to..walk against da road..enjoying da tasik view there...reli nice...but...very cold..
den..sh suddenly suggest v go PD...v all agree...on da way..da wind extremely cold...v tot is near..mana tau...35km???
wah...terkejut...finally v reach there...v enjoy walk at da beach..sit on da beach..enjoy da seaside view..da warm wind...da sounds of da wave...so nice...u noe wat??i tired til i sleep on da bike...how geng i am...wakaka...den look at da sky...tot 1na rain..so v going bek after dat...
reli tired but fun..frens i do love u all jz i dunno how 2 show it...happy valentine's day..^^

tiong hwa's next generation

2day...v go mv...
when in da train...v talk bout tinog hwa next generation ^^
sad...i dunno is my communication prob or my character got prob...
"i jz feel dat u dunno how 2 deal wif ppl when u work"...dis wat 1 ppl told me while in da train...
den...im thinking this thing 4 long long time...til now...
izit i reli got prob??or my attitute??
im blurr..
can some1 just help me??
or teach me??

tiong hwa's chess comp

haiz haiz...yday v hving chess comp...mana tau when i reach there...
i notice da song's lyric got mistake...
den i go modified...walao..take times...den powerpoint suddenly shut down...
i shocked..hopefully ntg happen..den i continue do my things...
when i finish my things...i oly notice da LCD projector put at da wrong place..
den hhv 2 shift agian...hope fully ex mtbc tech pengarah help me...he go dewan find da long wayar...
help me fix da projector...tech room locked!!!den he climb inside..fuyoh...geng...thank yc...
when ething finish...da programme started..
middle programme...i 4gt i sit near da speaker...i send sms 2 ed..den...da vibrate sound...walao..
reli 1 2 die dat time...
reli got lots of things nid 2 jian tao..haiz....
finally reach 2day...
i force 2 go kok..
so din attend da event...haiz...
so sorry dear KP...

my 1st blog

erm..dunno 1 2 write wat ler...
haiz..mid sem coming...but...
i stil bzing wif lots of activities...
i cant do wat i hv promised..sorry..
but after dis..i wil do wat i promised.
hope my mid term wil ok...
if 1 day hv 48hrs...damn good..but..there's oly 24..haiz
later gonna bz agian...meeting here n there...
run here run there...
wat for??
am i doing wat i 1??
or i jz dare not reject ppl so i jz promise ppl??
im so confunsing...am i a yes man??i oso dunno..
how??teach me....
i come here 2 study..not 2 playy around...dis wat my bro keep reminding...but...
haiz...
dat all 4 2day...gonna bz..