Sunday, August 23, 2009

矛盾...

明明已经做了决定...
但是...为什么心还这样软...

我恨我自己....
为什么老是放不开....

神啊~~~求您救救我吧!!!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

决定.....

经过昨晚....
我已经做了个决定....
那就是放弃....
我觉得他不值得我对他这样好....

哭了整晚...
好朋友也骂了我整晚....
我明白了....
谢谢你...

我现在需要的是时间...
我不会让好朋友们失望...
谢谢你们的关心...

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Oldies =)

歌手:michael learns to rock 专辑:blue night

歌词:歌曲:Paint My Love
歌手:Michael Learns To Rock
Paint My Love
Compose / Lyrics / Vocal / Jascha Richter.

From my youngest years
till this moment here
I've never seen
such a lovely queen
From the skies above
to the deepest love
I've never felt
crazy like this before
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Been around the world
then I met you girl
It's like comming home
to a place I've known
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Since you came into my life
the days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Confusing.....

I very confuse to our friendship right now....
I don't know who should I trust.....

Special for u....
I don't know whether i changed or not....
just be myself....
evertime i enter your room....
I talked to you...
you didn't bother bout me....
i feel myself not belong to you guys...
say already six of us don't have secret...
end up???
i don't know...
i really confuse....
u can talk A with someone...
then talk B with another one....
is u change or me???
i don't know....
i can't see myself.....
i admit i not longer that blur....
but...just don't treat me as a fool....
i got feeling....
i add up add up all those feelings....
end up....become like this....
i don't know whether is i think too much or what...
i just treat you da way u treat me.....
it's a manner....
if people talk to you..no matter how busy you are...
you should answer that people...
this so simple why you can't make it???
maybe it's my problem....

i really confuse....

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Finished.....

Finally Malam Suai Kenal finish.....
yesterday before the event....i went to Kajang Hospital to see Doctor....
We waited for 4hours there....
I choose to go yesterday...because i really scare i'm having H1N1....
I don't want to spread those virus to others.....
but i don't know it takes so long time to wait for my turn.....
I left my partner alone at the college...
I asked my friend to fetch me back...and i said i don't want to see the doctor ald....
but...my friend didn't say anything...just sit there....
When i'm back....
I try to complete my work....
but when i saw him....i just wanted to give them support....
caused they going to perform on the stage....
so i spend time with them....
and I admit....I really worry about them...

wanted to say sorry to my partner....
but I know no matter how many sorry i say.....
can't make up the hurt that she experienced...
just wanted to say sorry~~~
I choose to left u alone....because i know KTH got alot of member that can help you.....
but there????
sorry again....

now..everything finshed....
really finished...
all become past tense....
and i found out that our friendship become so unstable....
I don't know is my problem or...........
just let it be natural....
maybe as time goes by.....
i've found out something....I've grown up.....
Can think further...
not like last time....

Now everything is gone....our friendship????
I don't know.....
just be myself....

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Sick....T_T

Sick all the times......
on and off....
now having cough....
once i lay down on bed...cough non-stop!!!!
try to sleep very hard....but............
end up da next day.....HEADACHE!!!!!
don't dare go PK.....
scare there got H1N1 case....
so i just consume whatever medicine i have.....
really torture....
i HATE cough!!!
yesterday during the event...i cough till non-stop....=.=|||
cough til my lung out!!
first time cough till like that.....
people asking...why you always sick????
haiz....i also don't know....
haiz....
hope can recover ASAP....
then only i can enjoy those spicy and icy food...^^

p/s: sorry if make u worry~~~

Monday, August 03, 2009

扯玲 ^^

昨天去买了扯玲...
晚上就去了 Pusanika 等 Darren 来教....
过后就去上课了....
上完课后回去那里...
陪他们玩...
还真的很好玩... ^^
我会扯玲了咯!!!!
真的很开心....
过后他因贪玩...用了Amin 后面的路送我回 KKM...
怎知.....我们迷路了...我很怕~~~
过后还是下来了...
那时..那里还真的很暗.....
怕到~~~
过后我吵饿....
他就载我还有我的 direct 去了 Fasa3 吃....

真开心....~~~

Tired day...

Erm....yesterday was a busy day....
At first planned wake up early...
end up...LATE!!!!
Felo run away already....
haiz..cannot make phone call in room!!!!
can't even sms....SHIT!!!
then i use my roommate phone to call felo....
tell him i will go FST find him....
After that i go met bear to get his signature..then i when on Zone3 bus.
when i reach FST...
i totally duno where i am....I'm LOST!!SHIT!!!
then i called felo help..he direct me to Bangunan Kimia...so good..=)
after get his signature...i went pusanika order food....
then went back college submit letter to pengurus, pengetua and another felo....
after that i went to midvalley to take da diabolo.....
first time go midvalley...scare....
lucikly i saw chai wei..^^
we went together....we ate korean food....
so nice....you know what?? The boss very very pretty...^^
then go jusco shopping....brought egg etc....
then only met up the diabolo seller...
after that buy present for my dear dai lou...=)
then come back lo...extremely tired...
next week going midvalley take diabolo again....
money flies~~~

so happy yesterday.... =)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

.......

我觉得我对我的朋友很不公平...
看到他这样...我很心酸...

可是...

我真的不想这样....
我很内疚....
刚才她说:" 他也只有一双手....你要他怎样哦"
我想了很久....我真的很不服责任....

都是我不好...
都是我的错....

我想了很久....
我觉得我不可以空拿那个职位...
拿了好像没有贡献....
对其他人很不公平.....

有谁可以教我该怎么办吗??????